- But Elijah had people watching me.
- I had no chance to kill myself.
- I asked the system for help, but it said there
- was nothing it could do; I had to die to leave.
- I had to wait for an opportunity.
- On the day of my discharge, I tried to run into
- く
- traffic.
- Elijah grabbed me, holding me tight, his hand
- on my head.
- He was terrified of losing me.
- “Don’t try to kill yourself again.”
- “Mary, please.”
- I knew provoking him would give me no
- chance, so I said, “Okay.”
- Back home, Elijah took me to his room.
- He never let me in before; I just delivered
- meals to the door.
- His room didn’t smell of incense but of faint
- flowers.
- A cake sat on his desk, next to a ring box.
- Elijah pulled me over.
- “I’m sorry I hurt you.”
- “Let me celebrate your birthday again.”
- He opened the ring box.
- “I’ve asked your parents for your hand in
- marriage.”
- <
- “Let’s get married next month, okay?”
- “No.”
- I knocked over the ring box.
- The rings scattered.
- I couldn’t give him hope; he wouldn’t let me
- go.
- I said coldly, “Elijah, I loved you, but you
- didn’t love me.”
- “Now I don’t love you, and you love me? What
- does that mean?”
- He froze.
- “I’m sorry. I had things on my mind.”
- “I’ve figured things out. I see your worth now.
- You’ve been with me for eight years; I should
- give you a title.”
- “But I don’t want it.”
- I had no emotions; I couldn’t love him.
- I pushed him away and ran to the window.
- I quickly climbed out.
- Thinking I’d finally escaped, Elijah grabbed
- me.
- He hugged me tightly, relieved.
- “Thank goodness, I got you.”
- He knelt, tears streaming down his face.
- I felt nothing.
- He lifted my head and kissed me hard.
- His tongue invaded my mouth, possessively.
- I tried to push him away but couldn’t.
- He carried me to the bed and undressed me.
